i kind of feel like i’ve been just going through the motions lately.. i think i’ve been waiting for today to come and pass. *sigh* a lot of my attitude lately categorizes things in my “i don’t care” (#idc) column. i hope as the sun sets on this day, it will take my lackadaisical attitude with it.

so i’ve been thinking back on all the things that have happened and how life has changed in the last 366 days and while i’ve had some personal growths, end of a relationship, start of a new relationship, international travel, a move (kind of), debt payoff, more loss.. i think about Cath and how much change she’s had.

In that same time, Cath has lost her husband, lived on her own for the first time in her entire life, ended her 30+ year career, and lost her closest sibling. Change has been rolling in like a thunderstorm and i don’t think i know anyone that has handled it more bravely than Cath.

She’s easily the strongest  woman i know and i am grateful to have her as an example of how to be brave and strong and how to weather the storm. i’m pretty sure this example is what has made my sisters and i the strong women we are today. i’m looking forward to seeing those qualities passed on to my nieces and nephews.

I love and miss you dad. selfishly, i wish you were still here today but i’m sure you are way more comfortable where you are now.