so this weekend i turned 40. they call it mid life. i somehow feel like i’m quite past mid life. i don’t think anyone in my family has made it past their 70’s yet.. i don’t know if it was the gravity of this birthday, the hormones in the birth control that i’m taking, or that i’ve been missing my dad so much lately, but i have been very sad in these last couple of weeks. pretty much every time i am alone in my car i break down crying.

i really have no reasons to be sad though. my family and friends went out of their ways to surprise me with a HUGE party. there were people at this party that i’ve not seen in 10-15 years.. to say i was shocked is an understatement. i’m beyond blessed to have so many people that care about me enough to be so generous to celebrate with me. i think i’ll be paying this forward for a very long time.