Puerto Rico

20 Mar 2016 In: General

 

i recently had the opportunity to celebrate a dear friends upcoming nuptials in puerto rico. i jumped at the opportunity. i have never been to PR. here are some interesting things i learned/observed.

1. you don’t need a passport to travel there

2. their currency is us dollars

3. between the hours of midnight and 5am you don’t need to wait at red lights. this cuts down on “the carjackings”… i am glad we didn’t hear this until the day before we left. i think i would have been unnecessarily scared had we heard it at the car rental place.

4. verizon cell phone service doesn’t work in Rincon.

5. i think i have a “puerto rican” body. all the dress shops i noticed in the towns touted dresses with that dress cut i love, empire waist, flare skirt…

6. renting a place is kind of better than an all inclusive deal. it was certainly cheaper..

7. as with all foreign places, there are always other food options than the local cuisine. what we did eat of the local food was pretty damned delicious. mofongo is what i particularly enjoyed. it was mashed green plantains, heavy with garlic, and then topped with whatever – i had vegetarian, naturally, it was broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, all smothered with a brothy-butter. so good. and so garlicy.

8. lamborghinis are so effing loud. there was a douchebag that had one (amongst many other luxury sports cars he was happy to tell us) that he brought to Tamboo  and just would move parking spaces all night. when it was time to leave, he was so loud. i’m pretty sure there is nowhere on that island he can drive that car faster than 40 miles an hour. he was a douche.

 

mid life

22 Feb 2016 In: General

so this weekend i turned 40. they call it mid life. i somehow feel like i’m quite past mid life. i don’t think anyone in my family has made it past their 70’s yet.. i don’t know if it was the gravity of this birthday, the hormones in the birth control that i’m taking, or that i’ve been missing my dad so much lately, but i have been very sad in these last couple of weeks. pretty much every time i am alone in my car i break down crying.

i really have no reasons to be sad though. my family and friends went out of their ways to surprise me with a HUGE party. there were people at this party that i’ve not seen in 10-15 years.. to say i was shocked is an understatement. i’m beyond blessed to have so many people that care about me enough to be so generous to celebrate with me. i think i’ll be paying this forward for a very long time.

The rapist

26 Jan 2016 In: General

One of the better investments I’ve made in the last few years is in regularly seeing my therapist. I’ve been seeing this guy on and off (much more on lately) for at least 4 years now. He is quirky, but I always take something away each week. Lately he’s given me these couple of tidbits…

1. “The honeymoon period” – I was emotionally expressing some guilt I was feeling in not physically being around that much lately at Caths house. He was quick to explain that in dating the honeymoon period is critical to the long term health of a relationship. He said its memories from those moments that you reflect on that sustain the relationship when times are harder. Similar to the bonding moments that parents have with their newborn children. He urged me that it was necessary to have those moments.

2. “falling in my lap” – tonight I mentioned that things are going so well in my life right now and how it makes me a little nervous wondering when things are going to fall apart, and that I feel a little bit like this new relationship has fallen in my lap. He cut me off immediately and pointed out all the work I’ve been doing on myself and getting my life in order to be ready when the right relationship came by. He said this opportunity has definitely not happened by chance, and that I’ve worked very hard to make it happen.

**tangent** Reflecting on what I’ve made happen makes me think of the service I went to in Portland years ago where basically the message of the sermon was “god makes everything happen, don’t be over proud of what you accomplish, give god credit, HE made it happen”.

It’s entirely possible that I am misinterpreting the message of that sermon, but it still makes me irate thinking that anything good (or bad I suppose) that happens to me is not something I should feel accomplished or proud of. I probably should look that message up, I think I saved the program from that service because I was so dumbfounded, I have to be misinterpreting that lesson… **end tangent**

Anyway, those 2 particular nuggets of advice were ones I don’t want to forget, so what better way to preserve then than sharing them with the world. ;)

it’s coming

22 Jan 2016 In: General

time is the one thing you can’t stop and in less than one month it will bowl me over and i’ll be 40 years old. whoa.

i can’t say i regret anything as i reflect on where my life is at this monumental point. i do have a wish list for the future though and i’d say i’m in the best position yet as far as accomplishing these things in the next decade, if not sooner.

1. More passport stamps. i’ve already got a trip to Puerto Rico in the calendar, but Chile (Easter Island), more France, maybe Germany (Dresden), Australia, New Zealand.. i’m coming for you. also more cruises, that one last year was outstanding.

2. More visiting friends and family. i’m fortunate to know so many people scattered across this great country, i need to work in some vacations for visiting.

3. Eliminate credit card debt. i’ve been working on this since April 2013… and to date, i’ve eliminated over $17k. i’m counting that as a huge success and hopefully can bang out the remaining $5.5k before i turn 41. :) if my math is correct, this *should* be attainable.

4. Get married. this isn’t an immediate need. hell, i’ve waited this long.. children are no longer on the wish list, and since i’m only getting married one time, i am going to make sure it’s right, so i have all the time in the world if i need it. also.. falling in love has given me some confidence that this is an attainable goal.

5. Make more art. I have not prioritized painting, drawing or printmaking in recent years and that is rather sad. i’d like to get back into hand making my christmas cards again at the very least.

6. Play more games. Playing games and having game nights really is joyous. i need more of this in my life.

I think I get it now.

10 Jan 2016 In: dating

When I hear people say that they “knew immediately” that their significant other was “the one”. The skeptic in me usually feigns and impressed look, but internally I roll my eyes. I mean, come on, that’s movie shit. That doesn’t happen in real life. Those feelings are reserved for teenagers and the weak. :)

Until last month, I wholeheartedly believed that. I’ve never been in love, lust maybe, ;). But then I met this guy. He is nice, humble, fair haired, free with his praise, reserved, respectful, engaging. Not at all like the guys I had been meeting or thinking I was looking for. I wasn’t ready for him to be so into me so it was a little disconcerting at first. It was after our second date and hours and hours of conversation that I started to let my guard down. He didn’t try to kiss me on either of our dates, that’s when I started to fall. He wasn’t coming on strong, I didn’t feel any pressure, he didn’t have any ulterior motives. The kindness and compliments kept coming even when I confessed that I’m not good at taking them. They may have even increased.

Currently I spend more time than I should looking at or listening for my phone. Then smiling at it and floating through my day.

This is probably a temporary feeling, but I can safely say that I’ve never experienced this and it surprises me how quickly it happened. It might even qualify for “immediately”. Whatever this is, I don’t want it to end. ;)